Rebaptism Reflection
Hello Lovelies,
A year ago, I made a decision that changed the trajectory of my spiritual journey—I got rebaptized at 25. At the time, I knew it was a significant step in rededicating my life to Christ, but I had no idea just how transformative the following year would be. God has moved in my life in ways that I never could have imagined, and as I reflect, I want to share where I am now—what I’ve struggled with, what I’ve learned, and how God’s kindness has carried me through it all.
A Year of Growth & Refinement
When I first got rebaptized, I felt like I had a fresh start, a clean slate. But one thing I quickly learned was that a fresh start doesn’t mean freedom from struggle. Over the past year, I’ve been confronted with my own flesh with what seems like more than ever before. One of the biggest areas of struggle for me has been resisting temptation and walking in purity. By the grace of God, I have remained abstinent for the past year, but I won’t pretend that it has been easy. The desires of my flesh didn’t just disappear because I committed to this journey. In fact, I recently found myself face to face with a situation that tested me like never before. I thank God for His faithfulness in providing a way out of temptation, just as He promises in 1 Corinthians 10:13—“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” In that moment, I realized just how much I need God’s strength. I thought I was strong enough to resist on my own, but I am not. His grace is truly sufficient, and I am learning to lean on Him more than ever.
Facing My Own Reflection
This year has also been a mirror, revealing parts of myself that I wasn’t fully aware of. I’ve learned that I struggle with pride and giving grace to others. I’ve had moments where I lacked patience, where I was quick to judge, and where I failed to extend to others the same grace that God so freely gives me. This became especially apparent in my relationships—both friendships and family. Through different experiences, God showed me how much I struggle with unforgiveness. I realized that I often hold on to disappointments and allow them to shape my expectations of people. I expect people to disappoint me, and because of that, I sometimes keep my heart guarded. But God calls me to something greater—to forgive as I have been forgiven (Colossians 3:13) and to trust in Him rather than fear being hurt by people.
Understanding My Energy & Expectations
Another revelation this year was about masculine energy. I’ve always been independent, strong-willed, and determined to get things done on my own. But in my walk with Christ, I am learning to embrace softness, humility, and reliance on Him. Strength is not found in self-sufficiency but in surrender to God. This doesn’t mean I lose my identity or become passive—it means I learn when to lead and when to lean into the strength and covering that God provides.
I also learned that I have deep-rooted expectations of disappointment. I brace myself for people to let me down, and in doing so, I sometimes rob myself of the joy of relationships. But God is teaching me to shift my perspective. People are human—they will fail me at times, just as I fail others. But God never fails. Isaiah 26:3 says, “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in You.” My peace doesn’t come from controlling outcomes—it comes from trusting God through every situation.
Walking in Boldness & Trusting His Plan
One of the biggest areas of growth for me this past year has been in trusting God completely. This was most evident when I made the decision to seek transitioning out of MissToo Made It. When I got rebaptized, I didn’t know that God would reveal so much to me about Greek life and the vows I made in joining AKA. But over time, He showed me truth, and I couldn’t ignore it. Seeking to transition out of a business I worked so hard to build wasn’t easy, but it was necessary. The peace I have in trusting God’s plan far outweighs the fear of the unknown. Proverbs 3:5-6 reminds me, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
I’ve also learned to seek Him first in every trial. My response to challenges has changed—where I used to react with worry, I now respond with prayer. The way I pursue God is different. I don’t just run to Him when things are difficult; I seek Him daily, knowing that He is truly worthy of everything. This year has deepened my love for Him, increased my faith, and given me the courage to be bold and honest in my walk with Him.
A Year Later: A Work in Progress
I am still growing. I am still learning. I still struggle. But one thing remains—God is so kind. He has been faithful, patient, and merciful through it all. His love hasn’t wavered, and His grace continues to sustain me. I look back on this past year, and while I see struggles, I also see immense transformation. My trust in God has deepened, my understanding of His love has expanded, and my desire to walk in obedience has grown stronger.
As I step into this next season, I do so with open hands—ready to receive all that God has for me, ready to continue learning, and ready to walk boldly in the purpose He has set before me.
To those who are on their own faith journey, know this: God is patient with you. He sees your struggles, and He is not waiting for you to be perfect—He just wants your heart. Keep seeking Him, keep surrendering, and trust that He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28).
With Love,
Jadesha M. Hair