Welcome Back: A Life Update
Hello Lovelies,
I'm back, and this time for good. I keep letting life and time slip away, but I’ve realized that this blog is more than just a space to share with others—it’s an online journal for myself, a way to process, and hopefully help others along the way. So here’s a huge life dump. Where do I even begin?
In my last blog, I vaguely touched on things, but let me dive deeper this time.
God has been working on me—really working on me from the inside out. He’s been revealing so much about who I am, the people around me, and the world in a whole new light. He’s also bringing up my past, from childhood trauma to addictions and idols I didn't even realize I had. It’s not pretty, but healing rarely is, right? I'm reminded of Psalm 147:3, "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." This verse reminds me that through every painful revelation, God is healing me, even if the process hurts.
When I say I’m doing the work—allowing God to work on me to make me a better person for myself and my future husband lol—believe me, I'm doing the work! It’s incredible how God has been speaking to me through conversations with friends. It’s like He’s placed me in these girls' nights or random phone calls, where someone will share something deeply personal, and I’ll find myself crying because I’m going through or experienced the exact same thing and felt so alone. Proverbs 27:17 says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another." These friendships, these conversations, have been sharpening me in ways I didn’t even expect.
God is so kind. When I asked Him for healing, He responded, "Okay, let’s bring it all to the surface." He’s revealing things to me in ways I didn’t see before, and I’m learning to trust Him at His word. Romans 8:28 is my lifeline during this time: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." It’s hard to say, "Why me, God?" but then He reminds me that all of this is for my good.
About two weeks ago, God spoke to me through a conversation with my cousin. He said, "Go home and release it." So after church and a quick lunch, I packed a bag and headed back to Charleston. What I thought would be a quick overnight trip turned into a three-day stay. I had the hardest conversation with my parents—something I’ve held inside for over 15 years. I’m still healing and processing what I suppressed for so long, I’m not ready to share all the details yet, I know that one day my story will help someone else. Just as James 5:16 says, "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective."
Another challenge I’ve been facing is friendships. God has been showing me who belongs in my life and who doesn’t. Some friendships, ones I thought were solid, have been struggling. I don’t point fingers because none of us are perfect, but I’ve realized I can no longer maintain relationships where jealousy, lack of support and communication, or dishonesty are present. It hurts because these are people I genuinely care about, but as Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 reminds me, "Two are better than one...if either of them falls down, one can help the other up." I need friends who lift me up, not bring me down. I’ve had conversations with them and or attempted to, but nothing has changed. It might be time to let go and let God.
This walk with Christ is no joke, y’all. Obedience, repentance, and faith come with a lot of shedding—shedding old habits, toxic relationships, and renouncing things that no longer serve me. Luke 10:19 reminds me, "I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you." This scripture reassures me that obedience to God’s will brings about healing and protection, even when the path seems difficult.
Let’s not forget the enemy. He’s been coming at me hard lately, but I take it as confirmation that I’m moving in the right direction. After getting rebaptized, committing to abstinence, consistently reading my Word, and becoming more active in church, the enemy seems to be working overtime. But James 4:7 gives me peace: "Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." Every time he tries to come at me, I remind myself that God is greater.
On another note, today marks a year since I woke up to a breakup text that completely blindsided me. For the longest time, I struggled with a lack of closure, feeling like I needed answers. But over time, God has given me so much peace from that breakup. Isaiah 26:3 says, "You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you." This verse has been my anchor as I’ve learned to release the pain and trust God’s greater plan for my life.
Until next time, I’ll keep walking in faith, even when it’s hard.
With Love,
Jadesha M. Hair