Why I Desire to Heal: My Journey Through Healing This Year
Hello Lovelies,
Healing is a process that’s deeply personal yet profoundly impactful. This year, I made the intentional decision to truly heal—not just surface-level healing, but a deep and transformative process that touched every corner of my life. It hasn’t been easy, and the journey is far from over, but I can say without hesitation that it’s been worth it.
One of the most significant changes I made was stepping back from dating or engaging with men in any romantic capacity. Relationship trauma is one of the areas I’m healing from, and I knew that to move forward, I needed to take the time to learn what love looks like through the eyes of God. I came to understand that anything in my life that doesn’t align with His word simply cannot stay. This boundary wasn’t just about protecting myself—it was about honoring the love and purpose God has for me.
I was also carrying the weight of shame—shame from past decisions, struggles, and addictions that I allowed to define me for far too long. But God has shown me the power of His forgiveness and grace. Romans 8:1 reminds me, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." That verse has been a constant source of comfort, reminding me that I am not defined by my past but by His love for me.
Healing for me also meant releasing the mental and emotional energy I was wasting on things and people that didn’t matter. I realized how much space I was giving to thoughts, opinions, and situations that were not adding value to my life. Philippians 4:8 has been my guide: "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."
My desire to heal comes from a place of wanting to be better—not just for myself, but for others.
For My Future Children: I want to break cycles and heal mother wounds so that I don’t pass them down. When a woman heals herself, she heals generations, and I want to give my children the best foundation possible.
For My Future Husband: I want to be a wife who is whole, secure, and capable of loving in a way that reflects God’s love for us.
For My Friends: I want to be a better friend, someone who pours love, encouragement, and support into those around me without the weight of unhealed wounds holding me back.
To Tell My Story: One day, I want to share my story and use it to help other girls who feel alone in their struggles. Healing equips me to be a living testimony of God’s grace and transformation.
This year, God truly raised me, saved me, and forgave me. Matthew 22:14 reminds me, "Many are called, but few are chosen." I feel this so deeply in my life because God has called me into this season of healing not just for my benefit but for the benefit of those I will encounter along the way.
Healing is hard. It requires introspection, prayer, and an openness to God’s correction. But it’s also beautiful because with every layer I peel back, I see more of God’s hand in my life. Psalm 147:3 says, "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds," and that has been my reality this year.
This journey has taught me that healing is not just for the here and now—it’s for the future. It’s for my family, my friends, and the generations that come after me. It’s for the stories I’ll one day tell to remind others of God’s power to redeem, restore, and make all things new.
To anyone who’s on a similar path, I encourage you to embrace the process. Let God do the work in you. Trust Him with your pain and allow Him to turn it into purpose. Healing isn’t easy, but it is holy.
Here’s to continuing the journey.
With Love,
Jadesha M. Hair
“ Healing isn’t easy, but it is holy.”